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Biggest Mistake Ever

Member: spirit.chaser

Have you ever found that someone "special" in your life?  I did about 6 or 7 years ago.  I have been on this earth for just over a half century and as I look back through my life and where I have been, what I had done, my life with my kids and all family gatherings, and other things but I dissect my life at times. Just who am I in this world and what am I.

But what was my biggest mistake?  My biggest mistake was letting go the love of my life about 3 1/2 years ago.  I found my soulmate for life and I was able to have the best three years of my life with her.  Due to personal reasons, one day I just told her that she had to go home (she was living with me and she had her own home).  That simple.  There was obviously an issue that we were trying to work out but there was a reasonable amount of time or I had to do what I did.  The SIMPLE FIX never happened in four months and that was it.  The worst mistake I have ever made in my life.  I let her go!  I think about her every day and I think of "What Might Have Been" (great song)!  I loved her more than any other woman and it's not even close.  She was my baby.....and she was so beautiful!  WOW!  I know she thinks of me at times as well because we had so much in common and life was the best.  I never had a better life ever when she and I were together.

Today, I have been with the same woman I met a few months after my last break up....3+ years now.  I love her but it's not the same love.  It's almost like I just lived with my baby, my love of my life, my everything and just how can I love my current girlfriend like that?  I can't because I'll always love my ex and I'll never find another HER!  You talk about being bitten by the love-bug?  My gawd!  I wish I could find a woman to love me like I loved her. 

In closing, so I live day to day and just live my life as it goes.  My one wish would be that she would miraculously come across this story and read it.  Deep down in my heart, I really hope that we may meet again.  I know she moved within 35 miles of me within the past year and I am always looking for her when I go to the shopping plaza's, gas stations, stores, etc.., when I am around her area.  Do ya think I love her?  lol  That was my baby and I let her go.  So much for "if you love someone, set them free.  If they come back, it was meant to be"!  I am waiting for that day!  Is that fair to my current girlfriend?  It can't be fair to her.  I am not loyal as I should be because of this matter.  Should I tell her?  I don't dare..............it's my secret and this is the only time I have disclosed this to anyone.  I keep this secret to myself........or it wouldn't be a secret!  Shhhhh!!!

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0 #2 ms.singlebutsettle d — BW 2010-08-14 18:23

Hi There "Biggest Mistake Ever,"
I have to tell you that you are a brave soul :)
I have had similar situations and wanted to blog to the world about it..... but MY LUCK!
Never would I get by with that, So hey way to go! Dont stop now & drop some hints so she will know it's you :)

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0 #1 I feel for you — Just_My_Thoughts 2010-07-16 10:03

I feel for you after reading this story. I too have been in a situation like that, maybe still am. At my age, I wonder if I really know what love is and if it's really out there. For our sake, I hope it is.

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