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The Road That Wasn’t There

Member: VinceM

Did you ever have something happened to you that made you completely let go of your faith and your belief that God exists? Well I did, it happened over 10 years ago and it really changed me.

One day my mom Anna, received a frantic phone call from her younger sister Trudy in Czechoslovakia. Trudy was sobbing on the phone making her speech almost incomprehensible as she told my mom that her daughter Justine was in the intensive care unit at the hospital.

A week before, Justine has been complaining to her mom about strong headaches .  Normally when a child gets a headache you probably wouldn’t suspect that anything is terribly wrong with them, so my aunt didn’t make much of the headache complaints until the third day into the persistent tribulation.

The headaches were getting worse her daughter complained to Trudy. My aunt Trudy is quite the person; she’s a strong and charismatic individual that would do anything for her family. It’s kind of strange, but most of my family is the same way. Trudy became concerned with her six year old daughters complaints, and made an appointment with their local doctor for the next day.

That Tuesday my aunt brought Justine to the doctor, but Justine’s condition began to worsen and soon the doctors visit manifested into a hospital visit instead.

At the hospital Justine was moaning in pain, and I’m sure my aunt must have been going crazy seeing her young daughter in that condition. I can’t imagine how helpless she must have felt as she waited for the doctors to develop a prognosis.

Test after test were run and soon Trudy found out that her beautiful young daughter who just started her life was going to be ending her life just as quickly.

The doctors found a large brain tumor that was extremely hard to operate on and the chances of survival were less than 5 %. My aunt freaked as would any normal mother and that’s when we began getting phone calls from Trudy.

My mom didn’t share the news with us in the beginning because she was hoping that somehow everything would work out, but it didn’t!

One week after the headache complaints my cousin that I never met before died at 6 years old and the news destroyed my world.

I was eighteen years old, and up to that point I believed in God, but admittedly not so much in the doctrine that was pushed at me by the catholic church. The news was unbelievable, I just couldn’t understand how this could happen. How could God take a 6 year old little girl from this world? Justine didn’t even have the opportunity to commit any sins yet! How could this happen.

I was very emotionally challenged at the time due to the fact that my personal family relations were not typical. The news saddened and angered me greatly, but I didn’t cry. I remember trying to figure out what God’s plan could be in this scenario, but I kept drawing blanks. Eventually, I came to the conclusion that there cannot be a God. Who would consciously take such a young life from our family with such haste, leaving us in such despair?

My conclusion about God not existing had a huge impact on the way I began to live my life as a teenager. I began to drink at parties and become very reckless to myself and others around me. I got into fights and provoked fights around me. I had no reason to protect my life as if I cared about it anymore and each day was one menace after another.

During that time I purchased a supercharged Mazda Millenia. I loved the car, but because of my reckless thinking and behavior, the car didn’t last long in my hands.

The first time I crashed it, I was drunk with my friends at a local reservoir, and I drove it straight into a cement wall. Luckily no one got hurt and I had to rip out the ignition, so that I could call it in stolen because if cops showed up there I’d be arrested for sure.

The second time I crashed it I was driving with friends through a park and ran over a log 2’ in diameter. I cracked my front bumper and the radiator for the supercharger. The damage I caused was expensive but luckily I still drove the car home.

The third accident with the car, is the accident that changed my life!

Once again I was drinking heavily with my friends; trying to deaden my thoughts and feelings about how depressing life is. I drank a lot that night and so did my friends.

Eventually the evening was wrapping up and I decided that I was going to head home. My friend Brian wanted a ride home and I had no problem in giving him one. Unfortunately Brain didn’t realize how drunk I was, as I stumbled out of Larry’s house and into my car.

We began driving towards Brian’s house, when one of my favorite tracks by Kool G Rap began playing on the CD player (Fast Life).  Music, cars, and alcohol were a deadly mix for me. The song immediately amped me up and before we knew it ,I was traveling about 105pmh according to Brian when the accident occurred.

I was speeding on a street right by a cemetery and the street happened to T off at the very end. I still remember to this day, I saw a road that didn’t exist! The illusion of the road caused me to avoid a telephone pole and a house at a 105mph; without a seatbelt!

The road I saw veered slightly to the right putting me on a collision course with a few shrubs directly in front of a large tree.  I hit those shrubs and the tree without even pressing my brake pedal for a second because of the illusion that somehow played out in my mind mysteriously that night.

I remember waking up completely sober and confused after the crash and looking at my friend. Brain what’s wrong I said. “Dude, you just crashed your car!” I looked at Brain with disbelief, and then I looked in front of me. The air bags were popped, my stereo was smashed ,because my hand was on the gear shifter when it flew inside of it. My dashboard was pushed towards me a good six inches and the windshield was cracked.

 
Brain and I both stepped out of the car and that’s when I noticed that I had completely wrapped the front end of the car around the tree and destroyed the engine! I was bleeding slightly from my forehead and Brian was complaining of back pain. We ran to Brains house and I chugged a 2 liter bottle of ginger ale in 1 minute flat and began walking back to the scene.

Cops, ambulance, and fire trucks were already there. I walked over to the cop and told him that I was driving. The cop couldn’t believe that we were both alive, in fact I remember the cops and firemen were both shocked that we didn’t die in the accident.

The cop explained to me tjhat I pushed my engine into the passenger compartment and that I must have been going extremely fast to do something like that. I told the police officer that my gas pedal got stuck and that’s what happened. I was never given a sobriety test but I assure anyone reading this story that after that accident, I felt completely 100% sober! The shock of the accident removed all drunkenness from me isntanlty.

The police officers words stuck in my head, “Your both lucky to be alive”. That night when I got home, I thought about what happened and how incredible it was that we crashed a car doing over 100mph into a tree without seatbelts and survived. We also missed a house and a telephone pole because I mysteriously had a vision of a road that didn’t even exist!

The next day I found out that moments after the accident, car loads of my friends drove by the calamity coming home from a party. That news sent cold chills down my spine, because if they were just a few seconds quicker; I would have slammed into them at that speed killing us all!

That’s it! This all cannot be a coincidence, I thought to myself. God does exist, “God you saved me, you saved me from killing Brian, you saved me from killing myself, you saved me from something that I would never be capable of dealing with and that was killing any friend or friends of mine because of my drinking and carelessness towards life!”
That morning, I began believing in God again!

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0 #3 RE: The Road That Wasn’t There — badseed84 2010-08-05 06:01

i loved ur story and I read it in full. I'm still searching for my purpose and I had some of the same questions,that u had for God? I hope he will reveal my purpose in life soon. I am so sorry 4 the loss of ur darling cousin as well.

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0 #2 amen — DarkAngel 2010-05-11 20:35

amen to that...everything happens for a reason

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0 #1 The Car That Disappeared — Ktone 2010-02-23 16:27

Mazda Millenia

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