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Feeling A Meaningless Life

Written by m.

It’s just so sucky to have to feel these feelings day after day, yet we push along not wanting to fall behind on bills...even though we barely get by on a half ass education, fueled by so many thoughts of disappointment...wanting to always move or feel those feeling of running...the more I seem to do that the more I feel so alone....I feel like no one has time or no one could possibly feel this way....or things would be different.

So lost I can’t seem to see things for what they are anymore...so many experiences I’ve been through an gone through and yet I am so confused to what is the right way....so much rage fueled by flames of regret...it sadness me to no end....filled with just wanting to be a part of something bigger in life an knowing we will all die one day maybe in the next couple of minutes or maybe next year...but yet there’s silence...nothing... no love and friendship...just silence...an yet I do understand why....I just stay alone.....feeling alone.....too much holding on to the past....wanting it to be that way again...yet content with understanding that this is the way shit is...I understand...I see things pretty clear..

Understanding.... what come around goes around....and past regrets will always catch up to you...even when you thought it all worked out...wanting to give in, let it all slip away...pushing it past the point of no return is what puts me in this alone state of mind....haunted by past actions  wanting now to be so different...it doesn't seem to get any easier getting older....I feel more lost than ever....tired of playing a role that I  never wanted to be casted for in the first place....I... we.. Do the best..... we  push forward an try to stay straight...the pressures of this life put us all in so many predicaments it’s frustrating just to try to keep our heads above the water...it’s funny I sit an hear..read...listen...to....you...him...her....them....and that couple too......but in the end of the day....I'm still with this dreaded  feeling of alone....abandonment....frustrated of wanting to be free and open with whoever's around....and yet we hide....

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+1 #2 RE: Feeling A Meaningless Life — justin 2010-08-04 16:44

You feel very similar to how I feel. Like you are an actor in life, rather than actually being part of it. It sucks. You feel alone because nobody gets you. You are worried that no one ever will. It's an awful feeling, feeling absolute loneliness but surrounded by people. I feel as if there is no person in my life, nor will there ever be, who truly understands what it is like to feel as if everyone else is on the other side of a glass wall, bulletproof. Nothing motivates you. Depression doesn't quite explain the way you feel. Lost, that is the word that describes my view of reality. I cannot grant any words of comfort, for I am trying to figure it out myself, but I can say that there are people out there who feel similar. Intimacy is impossible, because everyone who i've ever been intimate, on any level, has left me holding the rope. I can trust no one. So what shall I do, but continue to live my life and try to be the best person I can be. Live to up to no other standards but your own

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+1 #1 I know how you feel... — VinceM 2010-07-10 17:12

I know how you feel, life is throwing you back and forth between rocks and hard places and at times it doesn’t seem like it will end. I felt like that many times, but I always found some glimmer of hope within myself to keep going. Try choosing a goal to work towards and take your mind of things… I’m not saying that it will work for you, but that is what I do to keep my head on my shoulders even though life is trying to pile drive me into the ground…

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