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What I Need

Written by Kathi

At my age.....

Is here really where I want to be? So often the thought enters my mind. Some times at the worst moments...I will be at a store and a scent floats gently past my nose, soon my mind goes to that dream....to that one thought that I have never been able to act on.

I have children, I've been married twice, engaged once after that. What is wrong with me? I tell no one about my feelings or thoughts. I know not one person in my life would understand. They would judge, or ignore it. Sometimes I think if I disappeared they wouldn't even notice. But if they knew what I felt inside then they would be all up in my business. I hate when people talk about me.

I could go some where, start all over. But I can't I have kids. But maybe someday when they have grown up. But for now, I keep my fantasy to myself....my dream....my desire.

I have always thought that women were more attractive than men. There is something about a woman's body that is soft, sensual and inviting. Even as a teen I felt that way. Of course I have never uttered a word to anyone about this. I am shy...very very shy. I also am not skinny, or beautiful so the thought of even taking this any further is pretty much a lost thought. I have been told I am very pretty by people. I have been described as BBW most people comment on my long flowing hair and how soft it is. But then I have read other people who say there is no such thing as a BBW. They say that BBW is just a pretty way of saying fat ugly slob. Can you tell I have a lot of self doubt also and pretty much no self confidence. Which is probably another reason I will never get to experience the taste of another woman. I fantasize about the touch of her breasts, the heat on her thighs, the soft silky nape of her neck where I would be kissing and licking. Oh the fantasies go on and on....I must go...return to the life I live in the here and now....Another time maybe I will write about what I have only dreamt in my mind....

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0 #1 Just do it... — 4me2know 2011-01-08 12:28

Why don't you find someone to fulfill your fantasy with? Be careful, do some research and then make it happen.

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