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God has carried me through all my storms

Written by mary hall

I grew up in a very small city with a very religious mom and grandma.  My dad was an alcoholic and left when I was six years old.  My uncle would visit on Sundays on the day he would molest me.  I attended both catholic school and church.  He would tell me he was touching me because he loved me.As I write this I am crying because what he did has affected me all my life it went on for a couple of years.  Then I would hide in my room when he did come over.  My mother did not believe me when I told her.  God protected me in my room, my uncle would not come in.  I was raped when I was 16 years old and many other numerous times by other men, but God was there he gave me the strength to deal with both the physical and emotional pain.  I was also physically and verbally abused as a child.  I know I would of never got through it without God.  I had relationships almost all where I was beaten severely and verbally for years.  I would of never survive if God wasn't in my life.  He has never left me.  Yes I have left God numerous times.  I tried to find comfort in alcohol and crack cocaine.  Comfort in sex believing it was love but all it was a man using my body for a thrill.  I never felt loved by any person or cared for.  God has loved and cared for me unconditionally.  Even every time when I screamed why are you allowing this blaming him he still did not leave my side.  He cured both my alcohol and drug addiction all I had to do is ask for help. I lost my youngest daughter because of my crack addiction.  Believe me I was so angry at God, but he did not create the circumstances I did.  I do not thank him enough for all he is done.  He is always there no matter what.  Still today I get very depressed but if I talk to God he lets me know it is OK.  He gives me hope and strength to go through another day.  It may be a good day or a bad day but one thing I can count on he will be my side. Available to wipe my tears, to pat me on the back for a good deed or just there waiting for me.As long as he is in my heart nothing else matters because there could be no greater love
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