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Raise Your Hand To Me

Written by Rachel

If anyone would have told me my life would end up this way, I would have argued them down. I could never be one of those women that sit back and let someone run all over them. I'm nobody's doormat. This a promise I made to myself, after all I watched the men go through the revolving doors of my childhood home. My mother was one of those women who never liked being alone. They would use and abuse her and throw her away like yesterdays trash. An impressionable young child, I soaked up everything my mother did and swore I would never be like her.

Funny how history seems to repeat itself. I'm all grown up now. Who would have thought that same person I looked down upon would now be me.

I sit in the corner, back against the door trying to hold on for dear life. Open this door you scream,  BANG, I feel your foot up against the door with such force. I brace myself and pretend I’m on a rollercoaster. My legs are getting weak, it’s been fifteen minutes now. I wonder how long can this go on for. Obscenities can be heard throughout the whole house. If the neighbors didn't know what goes on behind these closed doors, they do now.

How can you have hated me so much as to raise your hand to me. That same hand that stroked my face lovingly while I lay in your arms. Those same eyes hat gazed upon me with undaunting love, now look at me with disgust. The lips that once whispered sweet nothings to me now speak the most vile words.

Innocent I am not. I've hurt you more than I'd like to believe, never purposely though. I held your hand and enabled you. Six years down the line, you’re trying to stand on your own two feet. You fall, I’m right there to pick you up. I coddle you as if you were my child. I hold on so tight afraid that if I loosen my grip I’ll lose you.

Reality is you’re already gone. Gone from the moment you opened your mouth, raised your hand and looked at me as if I were yesterday's garbage.

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0 #1 RE: Raise Your Hand To Me — solost8 2010-10-23 11:13

growing in a relationship is not easy, we change an grow an in our minds we hope nothing changes....keep ur head up..ur never garbage....

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