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Unforgiveable Betrayal "Till, Death Until We Do Part"

Written by Jerry

Life can be real interesting. Life can go anywhere it wants to take you or where you let it go. During this time we develop feelings in our heart as we mature and we have a standard idea of what kind of person am I going to be in this world. I am going to live by my own personal morals. I am going to abide by as closely as possible to my morals and everyday of my life as I begin a new day is another chapter of just who I really am. Nothing may happen today that will be an unforgotten memory.......but I have just started my day and I found another road in my life to follow and see where it goes. But today is already a memory to me because it's the first time I have just opened up and typed a story that other people will read and base opinions but hopefully this will help at least one person feel a little better and be strength to get them through their pain just a little easier. Possibly get a fast smile or a grin. Ya never know!

I was married for 20 years and we have kids and I had to deal with a cheater. When I found out, I hit the door running! I left when in fact it should have been her because now we have "HER CHEATING" that is going to ruin 20 years of memories. I move out and now I have to live away from my kids because "SHE CHEATED". My kids have to hear what a jerk I am because their mother liked to run her mouth in front of our kids. What did I do? "SHE CHEATED"

So after a few months of living alone, we gave it another try. I moved back in and we were all one happy family all over again like the good ole days. Well, not really. All these months I was thinking. I kept thinking about how she betrayed me beyond forgiveness. I kept thinking about how she let another man see her unclothed and had a sexual relationship with my wife where parts of her body was NEVER TO BE SEEN BY ANYONE BUT ME (much less "touch and explore"). WHAT? That’s my personal playground (as I like to call it). Nobody plays on my playground. After twenty years and she did 'WHAT"? About a month after I moved back in, and I am still fighting off the pain but I am doing it more for the kids (that’s a mistake.....but that’s a fool in love and NEVER DO IT FOR THE KIDS IF IT's THAT SERIOUS TO YOU. You have to do what you have to do and don't let people CONTROL YOU! GET HELP IF SOMEONE CONTROLS YOU.....THAT’S NOT LOVE! Anyway she came home one afternoon and I told her I needed to talk to her. So we went in the bedroom and I simply said "I want a divorce. I can NOT forgive you for what you have done to me and our relationship and you are unforgiveable". That’s just how it went and just what I said.

I am a man that lives by morals, honesty, loyalty, respect, dignity, love, friendship, and maybe a little karma. When I commit myself to my woman, my lover, my best friend, my EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE TIL' DEATH DO US PART, I will be all of the above. If I can't abide by those rules, I leave. Why stay and be someone that I CAN'T BE? I can't be trust her. I lost all respect for her. She has no morals. There’s no love. That’s not my friend. She's not honest. Then there’s karma....oh boy! I can't love two women and really be "ME". Hell no!

I shed a few tears here and there and as a man I can just say that it hurt really bad. The pain was killing me. The agony of losing everything you built in your relationship. I didn't put 20 years of living with "my rules" in that relationship and to just throw it all away. I wish I had never even met my ex-wife. I really feel in my heart that a relationship I commit to will be ended when she buries me or I bury her. To end a commitment prematurely is FAILURE! I didn't fail anyone but in reality, I THINK WE ALL LOST! AND WHY? "SHE CHEATED"

Out of all the pain that I had to experience, there is one good outcome to speak of and that is "HEY, I AM STILL ME"

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0 #1 RE: Unforgiveable Betrayal "Till, Death Until We Do Part" — Just_My_Thoughts 2010-07-22 17:09

First, you can say you wish you didn't meet her because you wouldn't have your children.

Second, I cheated, yes, I am female, was it right, not it wasn't. But to make a long story short, I do not know what your relationship with your ex was like, I know what mine was like, what mine was missing. People cheat for many different reasons, not just because they want sex. I cheated because something was missing in my relationship. What was missing? The companionship, the sensitivity that I needed at certain times.
Cheaters cheat for a reason, not knocking what we did but we did it for a reason. Forgiveness is in the eyes of a beholder.

Note: YOUR KIDS WILL LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT!!! They will see that if lies are being told to them, give them time.

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