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The Secret Me

Written by Love, Annonymous.

When I was sixteen, my boyfriend tried to convince me to have sex with him, when I said no, he decided he was going to do it anyways. I dealt with it, and gave up on "me". It was only what he wanted. I didn't tell anyone until he slammed my head against the car. That's not the secret. The secret is, I haven't stopped thinking about killing myself since the first time. I also haven't stopped binging and purging. I know I do it, and I know that I want to do it, and I know that, even though I should stop, that I want to keep it. It's mine to be in control of. I know that if I ever stop, that I won't have anything to run to, even if that "anything" is facing my toilet. I know that I'm messed up, but it's my secret :)

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0 #5 caring — Darla 2010-09-28 14:34

be stronger,care about yourself and what is in your future because if you don't love yourself no one else can, wake up be happy life is to short enjoy your youth while it is there...

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0 #4 please get some help — kobra000 2010-07-06 08:37

This guy doesn't define you!,he doesn't dictate what your station is in life! He doesn't hold sway over you! You shouldn't punish yourself for his mistake.Please get help before its too late,that you owe to yourself.

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0 #3 RE: The Secret Me — Zine 2010-06-02 11:36

I'd love to get ahold of you, although I don't live in Salem. (I don't even know where that's at :P) but thank you for letting me know, I've had a hard time thinking I was the only one.

As to VinceM. - thank you for everything you said, it really made me feel better. I know that I can't stop without wanting to. Thank you.

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+1 #2 wow... — natasha 2010-05-23 22:44

my story is SO similuar to yours...
if you live in salem, we should talk..
i am still struggling with bulemia too..
and i was raped when i was 13 by my frist boyfriend..

ive never met anyone else who went through the same thing!!


thats crazy!

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+1 #1 What a Loser! — VinceM 2010-04-30 14:41

In life we are faced with many challenges, but I do believe that we have what it takes to change our tragedies into opportunities to grow emotionally and spiritually.

To change your binging and purging habbit you will have to first want to make that change for yourself... People fail breaking addicitons when they attempt to change for other people...

It starts with you , and there is nothing wrong with you to begin with... your ex-boyfriend was a complete loser!!!

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