Story Peeps Change Lives

Surrounded By Men But Still Lonely

Written by Elaine DeCarmo

I didn't have sex for about 11yrs. I didn't want it at all. I gained weight and later realized that I was using my weight as a shield.

I felt that it was good because most guys don't like an overweight girl and so it helped keep away any unwanted attention, but everything changed when I hit my 40's, my sex drive came back big time and I started to hook up with guys online.

I'd find anyone who was willing to be with an overweight girl (bbw). Even though I am embarrassed of showing my body, I'd have sex anyway because I was just so horny all the time. 

I love Asian men and I became obsessed with hooking up with them and pleasuring them. Most of them I pleasured and some of them pleasured me back. Most of them are married or have girlfriends so we would play in the car or a hotel.

I knew I was being used but didn't care because I liked the attention and I decided that I liked having different guys because that way I can always feel special and when we get tired of each other we can just move on (NSA).

They like me because I like to suck and it is nice getting all the praise and compliments about it. I do crave love but I know that I can't handle a relationship because I am too insecure and can't trust anyone to be faithful.

I know it's not safe being with different men and meeting with strangers. So why do I do it? besides the attention and the rush,  my depression also makes me feel like I don't care what happens even though I still may have fear. This is only one of my secrets.

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0 #2 So hot — RatFinkFive0 2011-01-11 09:35

Youre such a good girl...keep it up...wish i could have my turn with you baby...

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+2 #1 caring — Darla 2010-09-28 14:43

please don't do this to yourself it sounds like you are a very passionate girl, i stay in my shell also because i am over weight but there are to many diseases out there take care of yourself find a good person to treat you good....

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