Story Peeps Change Lives

Struggles Of A Thousand Men

Written by Ktone

God I love you so much even though this life is sooo much. The love of my life has recently entered back into my life and it almost hurts me to be away from her sight. I feel like I should be attached to her in some ways and in that way it’s a little scary this day. I’m not absolutely positive, but I don’t know if there is anyone out there that’s a better match for me then she is. I love to smell her scent and kiss her lips. I love to poke her and make her laugh, she’s so amazing and I’m so in love with her its confusing. We’ve been through soo much together and I was such a punk to her, that I almost wish I can take it all back. But I hope and dream that everything once again happened for a good reason and that if we do hook up as a couple again it will be phenomenally pleasing. I am so excited, so confused, so happy, so curious, on what comes next, it’s really bugging my mind like another one of your great tests. Yet I feel perfectly comfortable telling her exactly what’s on my mind. I was so strong against these women before, after we broke up and I opened some doors. But with her it’s unbelievable how quickly I let my guard down, told her the truth, told her that I’m not clowning around. I gave her a back rub the other night I was so happy that her skin was in my sight. She’s so amazing and I was such a looser back then, I gave her insecurities on every whim. I really hope that she is so strong from all the crap she put up with me. If I think about some of those moments when I was such an ass I want to and do tear. This girl this lady has always had my heart going crazy and now that she’s back in my life it’s a little scary. Scary because there’s always that chance that things won’t work out, but this time I’ll man up and try not to pout. At least not as much as before and I will be so happy if she could just be my friend if not more. She wants to take it slow and I do to, but I also want to kiss her until my lips turn blue. I love her lips because each kiss is so sweet and tender, she can warm me up on any given day in December. Throughout my life I had a few flings, and once I even almost got into the rings, but it wasn’t all right it was just okay, with her being the one everything would be so great. So I pray to you that things can be great with me and her, as you know the whole money thing was not my dream after all. Money is cool blah blah blah blah but being with her is far more important by far.

I love this girl it’s already breaking my heart, because I’m alone again pouring my heart out. God you gave me the struggles for what seems like a thousand men and I just hope this time I can win. What is the point of all these moments in my life, it only seems right if I can have her in my love life. But I’ve been fooled more then a thousand times, with friends and family constantly feeding me lies. My mind is and was poisoned since I have been born and I’m sick of explaining why I’m so torn. To get me is to be me and I don’t know anyone like that, it’s a life of pain that made me who I am. But the pain also awakened my heart and once again it was this magical girl that ripped it all out. But with time and forgiveness, I lost my shells and now I truly know where my heart dwells. So I ask you as if you could write me back but I guess I’ll wait for her love or another smack. I really don’t care what happens anymore, it’s not depression it’s just my life war. If I’m wrong then correct me, but why did even my own mother reject me did you think it wouldn’t affect me? I hope my intuition is right about this one because I just want to be happy for the rest of this life. You don’t owe me nothing at all but if it’s not this then what the muck is the point of it all.

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