Story Peeps Change Lives

Hey no problem man,just remember to take things easy,dont dwell and dont read into things.if you sit there and think about all the crap that goes on all the time,your just going to feel crappy is all. Think about good things redhead chicks with big boobs,fast ass sports cars,stuff you'd like to create or build,its mind over matter man,mind over matter.

im 33 and suffered from a bad self image my whole life,since i was about 5 or as early as i could remember,the thing about a bad self image is what i like to call the seed,someone says or does something that makes you feel bad about yourself,a rude comment,an insult,or even course jesting from friends or family plant it,then over time you water it,by thinking about it over and over and over again,making it grow,you come up with all these "sedo reasons" that alow to grow more,things like "my mom/dad yelled at me today,they must of never wanted me when i was born" or "my friends totally ignored me today,why do they even bother with me,im no good"
See its these little tiny slivers of bull BAD WORD you feed yourself that allows the seed to grow and the more it grows the more you hate or feel negative to yourself,the first thing you have to do,and god i wish someone told me this when i was 15,is dont try to rationalize or attempt to justify the hurtful things that other people say to you,people are BAD WORD s its a fact of life,dont sit there and say "well that guy/girl said i was this or that and the other,if he/she said it then it must be true" see dont add fire to the gasoline they are pouring on you.do you see what im trying to get at,of all the people that may or may not be saying or doing things to hurt you,don't let yourself be one of them.humans feed themselves so much bull BAD WORD on a daily basis that sometimes it gets so ingrained into our brains and mind that it often times becomes part of our psyche and soul.when i was 15 i was thoroughly convinced that my parents wanted me dead,and couldn't wait for the day it happened,becaus e i had taken one little argument and blown it so far out of proportion and scope that i thought it was the written in stone truth.in short dont dwell on the negativity people throw yo your way,but most importantly dont dwell on the negativity you throw your way,and that is where a lot of low self esteem comes from ourselves. As for the god thing,well i look at it like this,what is the common denominator of all the commandments? thous shalt not steal,thou shalt not kill,thou shalt not lie,thought shalt not covit, well when you kill someone,it hurts them right? when you steal from someone,it hurts them right? when you lie to people it hurts when they find out that you did,when you covet something that can lead to all sorts of pain right? so wouldnt it be fair and accurate that the common denominator of the commandments is pain? that each one if broken results in pain to one degree or another? and isnt it universally accepted that pain is the absolute worse thing in the world,even worse than death? my religious philosophy is this,try as hard as you can not cause yourself,others and god any pain,and your doing ok,yeah i know what your asking "how can someone cause god pain?" well he may be omnipotent and all powerful,but who's to say he doesn't have feelings?
your young and trust me nothing is as bad as it seems at that age. take care and treat yourself nicely,respect yourself first.then sit down one day and take a few moments to enjoy being you,.i know easier said than done,but give it a shot what do you got to loose other than a truck load of misery and self loathing??