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How To Escape From A Life No One Will Let You Lead?

Written by Keith brando

How do you lead a life, that no one else will let you lead? How do you be someone when people constantly try to tear down the very basis of your being?

In my house I can’t be intelligent; thats wrong but on the otherhand i cant act stupid just to make the other people feel smart thats wrong too, I can’t be correct about the simplest or littlest things doesnt matter what it is, and if I am right about something, I couldn’t be more wrong im crap im garbage for that,just for exercising a some itelligence. People look down on me and treat me harshly for doing the exact same things they did at my age, 32, but for some reason it’s entirely more atrocious for me to be doing those things than the other people even so much as drinking a beer will get me treated like shit, but others in my family can do it without narrry a word of objection i feel like im being treated like teenager again or more like some animal that people just want to get rid of,imagine a 32 year old guy that has ask for stuff,permission for the simplest stuff. I try to do good things to get people off my case, help out, sacrifice for others and I get shit on completely totally an utterly.guilt trips arent just a battle tactic in my house they are a entire language between folks, and on the other hand, if I mess up I never hear the end of it literally, im still paying for stuff and getting ripped up for stuff  I did when I was 14.

I can’t ever talk about anything everything i say to someone else is stupid or idiotic or annoying, cant never hold a conversation, cause everything I say is looked on with scorn, but everyone else can talk about whatever the hell they want at length. What do you do when the people that brought you into this world, secretly didn’t want you at all? But don’t have the common decency to admit it? What do you do when those same people describe bowl movements with more emotion than the day of your birth? What do you do when nothing you ever do is right or good enough ever in the least? How the hell are you supposed to be a functioning person when they won’t let you form your own personality and you end up spending most of your time over  analyzing every single thing you’re doing to see if it’s wrong because you have no idea whets going to be right? cause acorrding to them,every single action,thought or anything else you do is monumntally,abominalbly and uinversally wrong.

If you can’t lead your own life, is it ok to end the one others wanting you to live?

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0 #2 RE: How To Escape From A Life No One Will Let You Lead? — Marla-may 2010-10-20 10:29

I feel bad for you My family is sorta the same way but different in the sense that my dad treats me that way sometimes I don't be able to do anything right enough and I have to prove to him that I'm just as good as my brothers he will instigate things between me and my other brothers and sisters to watch it all unfold and laugh about it I don't know what else to do so I've given up and I live my life for me now because I am 35 and this is my life now not his or my step moms and I need to have that love from them and the feel of belonging but I will never get it from them

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0 #1 RE: How To Escape From A Life No One Will Let You Lead? — Wildcats2012 2010-09-17 17:26

First: Exactly what kind of a situation is this? A marriage? Still living with parents/siblings? Or is it just a roomate situation?

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